Weird video gaming.

You know you've gone crazy when you start shipping the members of your Fire Emblem army. Especially when it's like 'Oh my god, Princess Minerva has a fucking awesome axe that destroys armored people, and Barst has a fucking awesome axe that destroys armored people! Let's make them go kill these two knights together! Yay, they killed the knights! They should date or something.' Then their relationship takes a dip. 'Aw man, Minerva's on a dragon; she's always faster than Barst. He won't be able to keep up with her. And besides, she's the princess of Macedon, and he's just a mercenary. My best, but still, he's not a socially acceptable match for her. It'd never work out.' Then it comes to the end of the battle, and, coincidentally, the people in the best positions to attack the boss-dude are Minerva and Barst, and the boss-dude happens to be an armored-person! Then Minerva attacks him and Barst attacks him and he's down, and you take it as a sign that they should be together, even if you were the one orchestrating the whole battle, so it's kind of a self-fulfilling prophecy..but seriously! You thought it was going to be a difficult one! You were planning on surrounding him with your best fighters, but it turned out all you needed to take him down were the axe-couple.

Or maybe it's just me. Maybe every other person who plays Fire Emblem just plays it, and doesn't dig so deep into the characters..

Whenever a character dies, I either go into a state of shock, start mourning them, or restart the game. Sometimes a combination. I get really upset when I lose one. I talk to them, too. I yell at them. I tell Caeda she's lame and I don't like her very much, but I need to keep her around because Marth loves her, and because sometimes I need her to talk to people so they'll join our army. Or I whine at Abel because I was hoping he'd hit for more damage. And I always congratulate them when they one-shot an opponent, or down a particularly hard foe when they're already at low health.

I think when I play this game I start roleplaying with myself, in my head. I'm so weird.

(I do this when I'm playing Pokemon and Professor Layton, too. I kind of get..absorbed. Freak. The difference is that this game has a bunch of different characters for me to control, and it's totally my fault if they die, and when they die they never ever come back ever unless I restart from the last save point.)

I'm so weird.

Good night.

Olivia

PS. The mentality kind of transfers into WoW, too. Dude and I rerolled Tauren on a random server for kicks, and it's weird being a Hordie, especially in battlegrounds. Suddenly I have the urge to stomp gnomes..