Yeah just some random weird stuff.

Mang okay I'm really sorry, self and like two people who read this thing. Part of the not-posting was internet troubles, part of it was me-troubles, part of it was making excuses for myself being lazy.

BUT NO MORE.

That was the last vacation-from-blog ever. I hope. (I actually did write some entries, but for some reason or another, did not post them. Dumb dumb. I will copy-paste them in later.)

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Today I started animating again. Man. It is fun, but the computer I'm working on is pretty slow and when I move the whole rig, not just body parts, it gets laggy and doesn't playback real-time, which is a problem. Working on figuring out a way around this problem.

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I've been working for Nexcelom (parents' company) lately. Making demo videos for web, making diagrams, stuff like that.

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Okay you know what would be funny. Changing my relationship status on Facebook just to see how people would react. That would be so great; I would be sitting on my end of the internet giggling my head off okay it's a little depressing actually that I want to fuck with myself for some kind of sick amusement..

I-it would be funny to me..

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I am feeling a little bit weird lately. A little bit hysterical. It is like I am trying to make myself crazy. I dunno, it doesn't happen until at night when I'm alone in my bedroom and sitting there thinking about life. You know, I am always stressing about the future. It is hard wanting to be the greatest animator ever and then turning around and never being good enough. It is hard having a picture in your head and not being able to put it on paper even though you know you can. And I am not sure whether I am overambitious or just a lazy dreamer.

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Okay, my laptop battery is about to run out. Tomorrow I will probably talk about things like fireworks and roleplaying groups and Lady Gaga and more stress.

Olivia